september 14, 2010

i wrote out this really long post about the way my head works sometimes.
i deleted it.

i didn't feel like revealing that much.

september 12, 2010

i don't feel like saying much.
mom left this morning. and we cried, like always.
we were up early and i could have gone back to sleep, but that didn't happen.

work was easy today. and the vmas are making me smile.

i have pie. i'll probably eat some and then pass out on the couch.


i'd love to have someone to cuddle with.

september 11, 2010

i'm tired. this won't take long.

i'm back on a semi normal sleeping pattern, but my mind is so mentally exhausted that chances are i'll end up sleeping in past noon the next chance i get.

today was simple. out for breakfast, saturday market, another fabric store run, then cleaning/organizing the apartment. made a tasty dinner and watched lots of movies.

our old cat molly died today too. she was about the same age as me. 19/20. she was my grandma's cat and when she passed we took her in. my mom was pretty attached to molly so she's not taking the news very well. it's a cat, but i think it holds a bit more meaning to my mom.

she leaves tomorrow morning. we'll probably cry, like always. but i'll see her in about a month (hopefully) so i hope i'm not too sad.

goodnight

september 10, 2010

these posts are becoming more and more like daily outlines. which is fine with me since i prefer typing over writing in a journal. even though writing is more therapeutic to me...


today was good. i got to bed much earlier than usual last night so i was up by 9:30 today. i went for a run, then mom and i went to grab some lunch of pf changs.
then we went to the fabric store to pick out a color for the slip cover she's making for the loveseat in my apartment.
then we went to my work and i helped her pick out some new sunglasses. i got a new pair of jeans and some makeup.
a quick run to the grocery store and we were back at my apartment where i made her a tasty dinner.

i love that she brought me a bottle of wine, that we finished that one off last night, and that we are onto our second now.

i love my mother. really truly. i'm glad she's here. and i know i'm going to be sad when she leaves.



okay. sorry this is so boring. but i guess i'm not that sorry since these posts are more for myself than for anyone else.

<3

september 9, 2010

it was a challenge to get out of bed this morning. especially after only getting about 4 hours of sleep. i don't know what it was about last night, but i could not fall asleep for the life of me.

work was uneventful.

i baked scones.

momma got here.
we unloaded the car, then celebrated with some wine.
we finally got out to eat some real food. we got a table by the water and ended up having very personal talks about life and decisions and heartbreak.

considering how much i got out in the open, i feel like my head is more jumbled than before.


i'm trying to reach out. i'm just really terrible at these things.

september 8, 2010

this is my september 7th post.


i woke up. got stressed about adult stuff. went to work for 7 hours. came home and cleaned.



my mom will be here tomorrow. thank god. she will relevel my head and my emotions.





i feel bad. i'm sorry. i hope you give me the chance to explain what happened. because i think my explanation makes more sense than your assumptions.

i feel like crap

mentally, physically, emotionally, spiritually.

and i have to go to work. for 7 hours.


hopefully i can go the whole day without eating. that would be nice.





when did i get so crazy? i'm such a freaking mess. haha.